Sketch Pad #1

"I believe that when the soul disappears from this world, it disppears only to become manifest upon anothet scene in the wonderous drama of eternity." Edwin Markham

Tempest

  So sick..feels like my insides want to crawl out of me, every last piece. Rid myself of the toxins that have brewed and festered for these past few years. I would take a hose to the pile and cleanse it all, wash away the filth and poison that cripples me now.
  Shaking..swirling..climbing..crashing..dipping..swaying..thrashin..heavy..down. Must I lay my head just from the spinning alone, to lessen the threat also of vommiting violently from the sickness or worse yet, dry heaving from empty stomach churning. No calm admist this storm.
  Brewing inside like a hurricane, building up in size and fury. My hands and muscles shake, my brain gasps and chokes for fresh air while swirling, drowning from the waves crashing down everywhere. Oh God, how the stomach aches! Bowels on hiatus, terrified and anxious.
  Even the calm from the eye of the storm passing over, my body hasn't enough time to repair, to cope. The bile still rises up and lingers against corse, swollen flesh. The eyes swollen shut from the burning salt stinging and pelting relentlessly. The break is too short for my brain to realize.
  The steam train comes rolling back with even more force than before. Tossed with reckless abandon, raped ferouciously again and again, my body weakening with every whip, every word, every moment of memory, immune system no longer rebooting to help the fight. Hope is abadoned/lost from my eyes.
*The Rose*
May.21.2012

Lets start here

So its been almost 6 years exactly since Ive made any posts to this blog, and you could have said that I had forgotten about it which was true, until I was bored one day and did a search of myself on Google, and then I had to spend a few months to figure out how to even access it! But alas I am victorious as being persistant usuaylly gets me, and I'm back. What have I been doing, where, how, why with and to whom, would be a foggy mist to trudge through to catch up and frankly I dont know if I possess the brain cells to remember it all... So I will start with my plant! I bought it last year probably in October/November sometime and had orginally bought it for my work place. Its called Mother in Laws Tongue or a Snake plant I beleive. It measured 1 foot exactly when I bought it. I bought it for two reasons. The first being that I thought it would make my space happier and would remind me to be such. The second is because afer some research I found this plant was said to be able to sustain in an enviroment that was without sunlight, however we did have florecents during the day and emergency lights on at night in the area it was located. Well it didnt grow much the few months I kept it there until Christmas time came around and I decided to take it home with me, so that it could be looked after over the holidays. However the plant has not made its way back to my workspace, but I did repot it in the larger green pot you see in the photo AND....IT HAS NEW SPROUTS!!!  Or whatever you want to call them, Im just super excited that my plant lives after the repotting fiasco where I thought for sure I had killed it, having never repotted a plant before. I think the fact that it sits in actual sunlight now is what has made the difference in the little time its been here, and probably the bigger pot. I'M SOOO HAPPY!! There are 6 newbies in total to the plant. And with room room to spare I can't wait to see what comes in the coming months! :-D